i'm only left with used-to-be's: day 33.
On My Playlist: When There Was Me And You - Vanessa Anne Hudgens ( Gabrielle )
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believeMiracles could happenCause now I have to pretendThat I don't really careI thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
That's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the wordsNow my heart is emptyI'm only left with used-to-be'sAnd once upon a songNow I know you're not a fairytaleAnd dreams were meant for sleepingAnd wishes on a starJust don't come trueCause now even I can tellThat I confused my feelings with the truthBecause I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe thatI could be so blindIt's like you were floatingWhile I was fallingAnd I didn't mindBecause I liked the view
I thought you felt it too
When there was me and you.This song completely sums up what I'm feeling now.
When there was me and you
Labels: it's like you were floating; while i was falling.
#Sep 29, 2008 / 7:31 PM
i can't even cry, it's that deep: day 32.
#Sep 28, 2008 / 5:10 PM
just a masquerade: day 31.
Quiz as from http://www.ipersonic.com
Dreamy Idealist (DI)
Dreamy Idealists are very cautious and therefore often appear shy and reserved to others. They share their rich emotional life and their passionate convictions with very few people. But one would be very much mistaken to judge them to be cool and reserved. They have a pronounced inner system of values and clear, honourable principles for which they are willing to sacrifice a great deal. Joan of Arc or Sir Galahad would have been good examples of this personality type. Dreamy Idealists are always at great pains to improve the world. They can be very considerate towards others and do a lot to support them and stand up for them. They are interested in their fellow beings, attentive and generous towards them. Once their enthusiasm for an issue or person is aroused, they can become tireless fighters.
For Dreamy Idealists, practical things are not really so important. They only busy themselves with mundane everyday demands when absolutely necessary. They tend to live according to the motto “the genius controls the chaos” - which is normally the case so that they often have a very successful academic career. They are less interested in details; they prefer to look at something as a whole. This means that they still have a good overview even when things start to become hectic. However, as a result, it can occasionally happen that Dreamy Idealists overlook something important. As they are very peace-loving, they tend not to openly show their dissatisfaction or annoyance but to bottle it up. Assertiveness is not one of their strong points; they hate conflicts and competition. Dreamy Idealists prefer to motivate others with their amicable and enthusiastic nature. Whoever has them as superior will never have to complain about not being given enough praise.
As at work, Dreamy Idealists are helpful and loyal friends and partners, persons of integrity. Obligations are absolutely sacred to them. The feelings of others are important to them and they love making other people happy. They are satisfied with just a small circle of friends; their need for social contact is not very marked as they also need a lot of time to themselves. Superfluous small talk is not their thing. If one wishes to be friends with them or have a relationship with them, one would have to share their world of thought and be willing to participate in profound discussions. If you manage that you will be rewarded with an exceptionally intensive, rich partnership. Due to their high demands on themselves and others, this personality type tends however to sometimes overload the relationship with romantic and idealistic ideas to such an extent that the partner feels overtaxed or inferior. Dreamy Idealists do not fall in love head over heels but when they do fall in love they want this to be a great, eternal love.
Adjectives which describe your type
introverted, theoretical, emotional, spontaneous, idealistic, dreamy, effusive, pleasant, reserved, friendly, passionate, loyal, perfectionist, helpful, creative, composed, curious, obstinate, with integrity, willing to make sacrifices, romantic, cautious, shy, peace-loving, vulnerable, sensitive, communicative, imaginative
These subjects could interest you
Literature, philosophy, psychology, music, art (museums), writing, drawing/painting, astrology, spiritual things, meditation, handicrafts, writing, voluntary work
that's all about me.
Every day and every night
I stay by the phone
Never go no place so just in case
You call I'll be home
Seems like what I do is
Think about our pseudo romance
While you're somewhere burnin' diesel
In the streets havin' laughs
Labels: but i didn't want to face the truth; that i was just being used.
#Sep 27, 2008 / 10:59 AM
with sorrow and despair: day 26.
On my playlist: Footprints In The Sand - Leona Lewis
Will you promise me
you're always there?
When my heart is filled with sorrow
And despair.
And you'll carry me
When I need a friend
Will I find your footprints in the sand?
I think not.So much not done,
so much not told.
So much left to run,
so much left to unfold.
EDIT:
from Jean's blog.
and Shawn's.
What's a fact about the last person who just text you?She completely freaks out if there's a BUG. :D
It's 4 in the morning, and your phone rings...and?I guess I'll be too engrossed in sleep to answer it. ;p
What is your favorite thing to eat?I love japanese food? O:
What do you think your number 1 is doing right now?Just came back from tuition. Bathing?
What can you currently hear right now?Because Of You - Kelly Clarkson , as from WMP.
What's your favorite thing to have on your bed?My handphone.
I love sms-es :D
What's the last thing you ate?Some mee O:
Can you sleep in jeans?Think so.
I can adapt, easily.
Where were you on July 4th, 2008?-checked posts-
Oh, was blog-scolding that asshole Melson.
Who was the last person you were in a car with?Family.
Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?I have no idea.
Did you have a good day?Hell no.
What was the last thing you laughed really hard about?Mavis re-enacting the kimberley's gang's laughter. :x
When was the last time you got flowers?Don't think I did get any.
Do you plan on moving in the next year?I would most probably miss Faith2/1, hard.
What are your plans for the weekend?Study.
I HATE WEEKENDS.
well, somehow.Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?I won it in some game exhibit.
What are you wearing?Tees & shorts.
Do you like winter?I guess I would.
Honestly, what's on your mind right now?Why some people are just complete fk-faces. :[
Honestly, how many people have you liked in the past year?Well... I like all my friends.
Do you think you're approachable?My "PMS" just scares you away. (:
Are you going to grow apart from someone close?Most probably.
and I hate it.
What will you be doing at 8am tomorrow?Slacking during chinese lesson.
Do you have feelings for anyone at the moment?What kind of feelings?
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01. What do you want to do now?Have a great outing with Faith2/1 peoples.
02. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?My friend's place. (:
03. What's your favourite thing to do ?Being all lit-ish and compose poems. :]
04. Do you think money can buy happiness ?Short-term ones.
05. If you can make one dream come true , what would it be ?Re-live my whole life the way I want it.
06. Do you prefer a kiss or a hug ?Hugs, now. ):
07. What are you afraid to lose the most ?Everything.
08. If you win $1 million , what would you do?I would most probably waste it away.
09. Which is more blessed - to be loved by someone , or to love someone ?To love someone.
10. Where do you see urself 10 years down the road ?Most probably a half-dead uni-graduate.
11. What do you think is the most important thing in your life ?Love.
12. Any childhood memories you would like to revive ?I wish I hate took 5s for Primary 4 streaming.
13. At what age do you wish to get married ?This again?
14. What is your ambition in future ?Anything related to art or music. (:
15. Are you courageous enough to confess your feelings to someone you like ?I did before. I regretted.
I will never do it again.
16. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you. [ Jean ]EMO.
SPASTIC.
SPORTY.
17. What's your favourite cartoon character ?Spongebob ?
18. Favorite pastime?POETRY.
19. Comforting songs?For The Record - Mariah Carey
I Wish You Well - Mariah Carey
Rehab - Rihanna
Because Of You - Kelly Clarkson
and many more..
20. What's your current mood ?Horrible sucky-ishzxzxzxzxxzxzxzxzxzxz . :l
Labels: when i need a friend; when i need your hand.
#Sep 22, 2008 / 4:20 PM
deep inside, my tears all drowned: day 21 without hunter.
On my playlist: Cry - Rihanna
I'm feeling super low now.
And all that to become your best friend,
You tell me you're leaving.
Tell me how life's gonna be without you.
I can finally relate to you people.
Why me?
Why does all my loved-ones have to leave me.
Please, tell me you're not gonna go.
Tell me you'll stay, always.
No matter what, you'll never see me cry.easier said than done.
EDIT:
Yea.
This goes out to you.
I guess I'm gonna cherish the times even more.
I'm gonna make you remember me.
I'm telling you, you had better not forget me!
Because, I'll be loving you long time. :]
Labels: give me one good reason why; we can't just press rewind.
#Sep 17, 2008 / 9:34 PM
and it's so surreal: day 19 without hunter.
Cause when I'm looking in your eyes
Feels like the first time
Give me one good reason why
We can't just press rewind
I don't wanna spend my life
Thinking what it could've been like
If we had another try
Like back in the day
That look on your face
Feels like, the first time
Let's re-write the endStart over againAnd it's gonna go better nowGonna go on
HIATUS.
As you know, EOYE's coming.
I'm so wishing to go to
threeone.
So, goodbye.
And wish my goodluck aye? :D
Thanks, in advance ;P
Labels: forget the irregularities; they can't compete with me.
#Sep 15, 2008 / 10:56 PM
i'm out of control: day 18 without hunter.
On my playlist: Cruise Control - Mariah Carey ft. Damian Marley
Might need to go slow, I don't know
Why I ease up on the brake every time I see HER face
I'm outta control, I... I don't know
How to stay up in my lane
Every day and night SHE's cruisin' through my brain
.
I guess things might change for the better? (:
EDIT:
Quizzes.
From Jean/Shawn's blog:1.The person who tagged/pass you is?Jean AND Shawn :D
2. Your relationship with him/her?They're both my GREAAAAAAAAAT friends! (:
3. Your five four (can't think of anymore ;x) impressions of him/her?Jean:
- EMO. hahaaaa
- Lovesick. [ BLEAH ]
- Sporty!
- SPASTIC. [ do I even know what that means? ]
Shawn:
- EMO too, at times. haha
- Friendly. :D
- Matured, physically and emotionally :]
- A GREAT friend. [ I don't know what to fill -.- ]
4. The most memorable thing he/she has done to you?Jean:
Called me "Prince Charming" since forever. :D
Shawn:
Cheered me up when I was down.
5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you?Jean:
"PRINCE CHARMING" :D
Shawn:
"Close friend. (?)" [at the links ;x]
6. If he/she becomes your lover you will?Jean:
Call her "Princess Charming" ! HAHA.
Shawn:
!!?!??
7. If he/she became your lover, he/she has to improve on?Jean:
._.?
Shawn:
-.-?
8. If he/she became your enemy, you will?Jean:
Ignore her! MUAHAHAHAHA.
Shawn:
Ignore him more! loool.
9. If he/she became your enemy, the reason will be?Jean:
She stopped calling me "Prince Charming". xD
Shawn:
I have no idea ._.
10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her is?Jean:
Be there for her always. :D
Shawn:
Be someone for him to talk to, when he's down. :D
11. Your overall impression of him/her is?[ Copies & pastes from Q2. ]
They're both my GREAAAAAAAAAT friends! (:
12. How do you think the people around you will think about you?I'm irritating, OVERLY quiet [ at times ], unreasonable [ at times ].
and more for you to fill in .
13. The characteristics you love of yourself are?That I love art. :]
14. On the contrary, the characteristics you hate of yourself are?Too sensitive?
15. The most ideal person you want to be is?Someone like him > ":]" .
16. For people who care and like you, say something to them.All the people with smilies beside.
I love you! :D
17. Pass this quiz to 10 people.1. ZHAORONG !
2. NATALIE !
3. SHAWN !
4. JEAN !
5. FOO XIN !
6. JELENE !
7. JASSIE !
8. JUN TIAN !
9. CASANDRA !
10. DAWN !
18. Who is number 6 having a relationship with?[ JELENE ]Her girlfriends. :D
19. Is number 9 male or female?[ CASANDRA ]Half-half . LOL.
20. If number 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?[ JASSIE & DAWN ]I think they don't even know each other. -.-
21. What is number 2 studying about?[ NATALIE ]OBVIOUS REASONS SPILL. HAHAHAH ;x
22. What kind of band does number 8 like?[ JUN TIAN ]Anything Jap. :D
23. Does number 1 have any siblings?[ ZHAORONG ]YES!
24. Will you woo no. 3?[ SHAWN ]Hmm. I guess I will! LOL.
joking .25. How about number 7?[ JASSIE ]She has a boyfriend already. =p
26. Is number 4 single?[ JEAN ]Hmm. Her heart belongs to.. A... :D
27. What is the surname of number 5?[ FOO XIN ]Foo! :D
28. What's the hobby of number 10?[ DAWN ]Crapping around with Jun Tian ! ;x
29. Does number 5 and 9 get along well?[ FOO XIN & CASANDRA ]Well... They're both tall...
30. Where is number 2 studying at?[ NATALIE ]Geylang Methodist School (Secondary).
31. Talk something casually about number one.[ ZHAORONG ]Rub? -.-
32. Where does number 9 live at?[ CASANDRA ]Ask Sheng Wen :D
33. What colour does number 4 like?[ JEAN ]Green Jean?
34. Are number 5 and number 1 best friends?[ FOOXIN & ZHAORONG ]I guess they don't like each other ;x
35. Does number 1 have any pets?[ ZHAORONG ]He is a pet himself. :D
36. Is number 7 the sexiest person in the world?[ JASSIE ]Ask fishhead & szc :D
37. What is number 6 doing now?[ JELENE ]I don't know, sleeping?
AND.
From Jassie's blog:1. If your lover betrayed you , what will your reaction be ?Depends on the depth of our love.
2.If you have a dream to come true , what would it be ?LOVE ! Of all kinds? :]
3. What will be you dream wedding be like ?Just like a dream. xD
4. Are you confused of what lies ahead of you ?Yea, I'm completely mixed up.
5. What's your ideal lover ?Someone like ... what my heart is searching for. :D
6. Which is more blessed ? being loved ? or loving someone ?Loving someone.
7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love ?Depends on the depth of my love.
8. If the person you secretly like is attached already , what will you do ?Be best friends with her, don't tell her I like her.
Make sure she's happy with him.
Make sure she's okay.
Make sure she's not hurt.
Make sure he takes care of her.
9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy this days ?I've not been studying -.-
10. Is being tagged fun ?Maybe.
11. How do you see yourself in 10 years time ?A great artist :D
12. Who are the ones that means the most to you, currently ?Sim Zi Chao, Long Zhaorong, Leong Yong Liang, and everyone with the smilie :D
esp. you.13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is ?She is Jassie. :D
14. Would you be single & rich or poor & married ?Poor & Married.
15. What's the first thing you do in the early morning ?Get myself out of bed. D:
16. Would you give all in relationship ?Again. Depends on the depth of our love.
17. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick ?I'd most probably start to hate both. ;x
18. What type of friends do you like ?Friends like those named in Q12 . :D
19. What type of friends do you dislike ?I wouldn't even be friends with someone I dislike.
Finally, done.
Oh my, it's 10:40 already -.-
Labels: she comes into view; right in my avenue.
#Sep 14, 2008 / 9:56 PM
now I'm broken-hearted and shattering: day 17 without hunter.
On my playlist: Thanx 4 Nothin' - Mariah Carey
Nothin' anyone could do to convince me babe
I was livin' in a lie just a masquerade
Now I only know that I'll never be the same
But you were just playin' a game
.
Wasted day spent on computer games.
Gonna finish my work and study tomorrow.
GAMBATEH!
lol --
Labels: i was drowing in tears; well you're so insincere.
#Sep 13, 2008 / 11:18 AM
today is a winding road: day 16 without hunter.
On my playlist: Thunder - Boys Like Girls
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
.
Some people are just not worthy to be loved.
and you guys are just complete f
ucktards. (:
Labels: i don't ever wanna love another; you'll always be my thunder.
#Sep 12, 2008 / 11:58 PM
i truly wanted solidarity: day 15 without hunter.
On my playlist: I Wish You Well - Mariah Carey
When glory days turn to stormy nights
You must have been so petrified
Didn't you, didn't you feel so cold
You against the world in a losing fight
Captive of your demons inside
.
Chinese test today.
I'm sure I flunked it.
Science was okay, I got my target.
English sucks, I'm giving up on it again.
EDIT:
I am once again pissed.
I am once again devastated by my horrible english results.
I actually got lower than Sim Zi Chao.
I'm not saying his english is bad, but I think mine is better than him, right?
And he still wants to get even more marks.
I GOT LOWER THAN 35 OKAY.
SOME PEOPLE JUST CAN'T KEEP THEIR MOUTH SHUT
AND HAVE TO TELL EVERYONE THEIR MARKS.
WHAT THE HELL YOU.
Okay, so you had an A.
WELL GOOD FOR YOU.
DO YOU HAVE TO GO AROUND SHOWING OFF?
You people need to get a life.
It's just super unfair.
Those people who are not paying attention in class, are complete slackers,
are actually the ones scoring very well.
And those who ARE paying attention, do study hard,
are those failing and getting bad results.
Those who had scored well show off like nobody's business.
AND, those who had scored badly are completely demorialized.
Thanks to you, we're having a lower self-esteem.
Well, apparently I am one of those more dumb ones.
Definitely, I'm going to Faith 3/2.
SOME people really have no brains and eyes.
It's like, you are already very angry, showed your anger,
that someone still takes it as a joke.
Do you even have a brain to tell you what to do?
Do you even know what to do at the right time?
Please, for goodness sake, stop being so insensitive.
Start to observe and understand people.
Start to care for others.
People don't love you for nothing.
and well, you should know I am loving you for nothing.Labels: but we've all made mistakes; felt the guilt and self-hate.
#Sep 11, 2008 / 8:16 PM
i never felt something so strong: day 14 without hunter.
On my playlist: Rehab - Rihanna
And I'll never give myself to another
The way I gave it to you.
Don't even recognize
The ways you hurt me
Do you?
It's like I checked into rehab
Baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
Damn,
Ain't it crazy
When you're loveswept?
You'll do anything
For the one you love.
Geography & Grammar test today.
Geography was okay.
Grammar was uber madness.
It was epic hardness.
Well, expected as set by Mr Teo.
Chinese test tomorrow.
Gonna fail it.
Labels: i don't know how to follow; and now you've made my heart's hollow.
#Sep 10, 2008 / 9:56 PM
i'm tripping on words: day 13 without hunter.
On my playlist: You And Me - Lifehouse
'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you.
I can't keep my eyes off of you.I'm still learning geography.
~.~
Labels: with nothing to do; nothing to prove.
#Sep 9, 2008 / 10:00 PM
and i can't seem to rationalize: day 12 without hunter.
On my playlist: Last Kiss - Mariah Carey
It's too big we just can't quit
What you think this is
Our love will always exist
GIRL you know we trill
So stop frontin'
What we got is still
Somethin' somethin'
EXAMS ARE COMING.
I should be studying. urgh.
I shall fail, hohoho. -_-
PSST:
I haven't had dinner -.-
Labels: you said you'll never leave me; so i'm still believing in "we".
#Sep 8, 2008 / 9:51 PM
for the record, you're all alone: day 11 without hunter.
On my playlist: For The Record - Mariah Carey
For the record
You'll always be a part of me
No matter what you do
And for the record
Can't nobody say
I didn't give my all to you.
that's so true.
PS:
This is my 101 post.
Finally past 100 :D
Yay -_-
Labels: why it hurts so hard; tears me all apart.
#Sep 7, 2008 / 10:38 PM
it's never the same: day 10 without hunter.
On my playlist: Realize - Colbie Caillat
If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.
Could you just realize?
i'm dying inside., without youLabels: if you just realize what i just realized.
#Sep 6, 2008 / 7:45 PM
you don't even know: day 9 without hunter.
On my playlist: A Little Bit Longer - Jonas Brothers
You don't know what you got till it's gone.
You don't know what it feels to be so low.
And everytime you smile or laugh you glow.
You don't even know.
This song pretty much sums up what I'm feeling now.
Just a little bit longer, and I'll be fine.Labels: got the news today; but they said I had to stay.
#Sep 5, 2008 / 8:21 PM
i'll be loving you long time: day 8 without hunter
#Sep 4, 2008 / 11:26 AM
i hold tight onto my faith: day 7 without hunter.
#Sep 3, 2008 / 11:59 AM
fake a smile and deal with the side effects: Day six without hunter
A - Avril Lavigne
B - Beyonce
C - Chris Brown
D - Destiny's Child
E - Electrico
F - Fall Out Boy
G - Gwen Stefani
H - Hady Mirza
I - :D?
J - Jason Mraz
K - Keyshia Cole
L - Leona Lewis
M - Mariah Carey
N - Natasha Bedingfield
O - Oasis
P - Paramore
Q - ?
R - Rihanna
S - Secondhand Serenade
T - Timbaland
U - Utada Hikaru
V - Veronicas, The
W - ?
X - ?
Y - ?
Z - ._.
Quiz as from Shawn's blog.
bored.
Labels: since life ain't that great; i guess it's time to migrate.
#Sep 2, 2008 / 10:56 PM
a melody i've start but can't complete: day 6 without hunter
On my playlist: Listen - Beyonce
Sorry.
I know its too late.
But, can we not even stay as friends?
Is it too much to ask?
Or is it that you don't feel that I'm doing enough for you?
What am I to do?
I need directions.
I'm still feeling low and all.
I guess you just don't care.
Its another screwed up love story.
I can't even think straight anymore.
I'm trying my very best to talk to you.
I'm very sorry.
But.
I guess we can never go back to the past.
Those were really happy times.
I know nothing, except that I love you.
Labels: i wanna be the one you believe in your heart; so much that it doesn't matter we're apart.
# / 4:54 PM
it's over, you're really gone.
#Sep 1, 2008 / 4:39 PM
i want to run away, i've no patience for the pain.
# / 10:15 AM
all that i know is i won't be okay.
# / 12:50 AM