it's you and me moving at the speed of light till eternity.
#Aug 31, 2008 / 11:14 PM
now i'm done believing you.
September holidays are here.
I'm so not looking forward to it.
Why?
There's no school.
):
I'll still love you as much.Deciding to mug hard in the holidays.
Which I don't think I'll be able to. ;x
but for now, I'm letting go._ listen.PS:
Show some care
, fucker.Labels: now i've got to find my own; my very own place to call home.
#Aug 30, 2008 / 8:57 PM
i'm all out of my element.
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i don't want anyone else.
#Aug 29, 2008 / 9:47 PM
with weapons in the form of words.
Everything went well for debate, except for Lionel.
We, the debate team, have been putting up with his crap.
And when he lost, he blamed everything at us.
What's this?
You didn't want to co-operate with us first.
AND. we weren't supposed to even have a bloody script.
And for you taking one, I guess we had our marks reducted.
You said you ran out of points, and we didn't help you.
Look. You didn't want our points, you did your own thing.
We wanted for you to take our points, you didn't want it.
You didn't want our help, and you're blaming us.
Miss Johnson said we weren't together.
You were the only extra.
You despicable moron.
Even tried to complain to Mr Teo right?
And you've made everyone else hate you.
Hah, we'll see who wins.
my love ain't a lie, it's as true as the sky.Once the debate ended.
The whole bunch of guys were completely gone.
SOME FRIENDS.
You all only care about yourselves.
Why bother coming for the debate anyway?
Go home and play your silly computer game you addicted freaks.
I can't even stress this more enough.
Time and time again.
You all showed me that horrible attitude.
You didn't even cared about me.
Self-centered morons.
Look, even the girls were better off than you all.
What class spirit is this?
Are we able to answer to our form teacher, that we're all apart,
in our own cliques and everything else.
We have NO class spirit.
I have no friends.
What about us?What about everything we've been through?Labels: i'm on my own; i'm all alone.
#Aug 28, 2008 / 6:45 PM
it cuts so deep, it hurts down to my soul.
#Aug 27, 2008 / 7:26 PM
damned if I let you go.
I'm having a veryy sore throat today.
But at least I maintained my HAPPY self, somehow.
I guess someone cheered me up (:
I bought a CAKE for Zi Chao today.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. :D
TingXie for chinese.
I'm gonna pass, I hope.
Art was a free 2 period.
And we kinda celebrated Zi Chao's birthday?
The girls sung the birthday song, as always.
I GOT SING ALSO HOR, lol.
:D
Acted for music as CALEFARE.
Haha.
"Look down, look down". ;x
Recess was horrible as usual.
stupid prefect duty.
The rest of the 4periods was spent on debating related matters.
Shawn joined as assistant!
And we're regretting it.
Someone is just a horrible teammate and speaker. :D
Stayed back after school to do teachers' day card.
In the end, I slaaaaaaaaaaaaaacked all the way :D
It was fun though.
I'm aching all over.
esp. my heart.I guess I'm sick.
yea, lovesick.
it's raining again,
and my heart's bleeding again.
Labels: didn't think I'd miss her that much; it's like I'll fall apart as such.
#Aug 26, 2008 / 7:34 PM
i knew that i wasn't going to let you go.
P.E. sucked as usual.Kang made us play bball, I want my retest; damn it.I'm sorry.Recess was hella boring.I hate prefect duties.I can't be trusted.I scored horribly low for Maths Common Test.I'm too ashamed to even announce my result.I actually drew a "w" shape for the graph.Urgh, stupid me.I'm too timid.Went to the library during English for debating stuff.And I'm a mere assistant; pfft, pathetic.I can't even face you.Oh.Science was nap time. :DI was freaking bored [& pissed] with no one to talk to;nobody wants me.Anyway, I was tired and took a SHORT rest. :DTHUS, I'm so gonna fail science.Let alone being with you.Band was the worse.I shall not elaborate on the horrible events.Though ZhiHao entertained me.Thanks.I am ashamed and disgusted with myself.nobody wants me.Labels: you know you got my attention; but it's just hard for me to mention.
#Aug 25, 2008 / 7:45 PM
what more can you say?
#Aug 24, 2008 / 7:39 PM
but do you even have a clue?
I guess I'm just too bored [ or lonely ]
that I keep thinking about these things.
You know, friendship, family and such.
It
IS because I've no family love,
and that's why I
reallyreallyreally cherish all these things.
Esp. friendships.
okay I'm being really random by posting,
because I seriously have nothing better to do.
urgh.
Labels: i shall stop the stare; i shall stop the flare.
#Aug 23, 2008 / 8:30 PM
right now I feel invisible to you.
boring.
I sat infront of the com for half a day.
my eyes will be dead soon enough.
I will be bored dead before that.
RANDOM:
I am so not looking forward to the december holidays;
I can't imagine life without you guys.
it's going to be hell.Zi Chao, Zhaorong, Yong Liang, Zhi Hao, Nathan, Shawn, Sheng Wen, Andy, Gabriel, Jasmine,
Angel, Regina, the 7girls [ Casandra, Natalie, Germin, Mandie, Joy, Gladys, Jelene. :D ],
Jia Qi, Mavis and everyone else. [ Sorry if I didn't name you. ]
esp. you, baby.I would be even more lonely than I am now.
I need you.How can I live without you?
I can't.I am so hating next year.
that's gonna be super lonely for me.I am going to drop to F32.
without you.I'm not going to be in the same class as you guys.
fuck; no.You guys are my all.
my everything.I can't possibly live with nothing.
):ilovedyouso.I guess I'm going to cherish the times we're having;
I definitely willbefore its gone forever.
I hope I won't lose it before forever.I hope time stood still.
So I can be with you.Labels: i was left to cry there; with no one else to care.
# / 7:02 PM
can't even speak about it.
Today went kinda well.
I was happy (:
Sorry for being unable to finish that d&t, ;xThanks Shawn :]
I finally talked to you :DLiterature was fun!
Paired with Andy for pair-work.
Sorry ZiChao ):
13adjectives okay, I never say only =p
Nice presentation :DMr Teo wasn't here today.
And I was alone as usual ):
Whatever.
andRANDOM
iRANDOM
loveRANDOM
you!
all:D
Labels: why'd you turn away; that's what I have to say.
#Aug 22, 2008 / 7:02 PM
i ain't the same no more.
You're not the same either.
I'm back to being emo me again.
tsk, fucked-I left as you've said.
happy?
i feel like shit.unconditional love, can I ?
am I that magnanimous?
EDITED:
i
am
so
f
ucking
alone
.
Labels: it's no escaping; we're just erasing.
#Aug 21, 2008 / 4:59 PM
this ain't a scene
#Aug 20, 2008 / 7:22 PM
Everyone's suddenly MUGGING for science O:Today's english paper wasn't that tough.
I guess the summary was kinda easy,
while the compre questions were harder.
And I'm not seated with zichao anymore, aww. LOL
3periods with Mr Teo was spent on debates again.
I guess I'm joining it, or not.
It was a great topic to debate on.
"Boys are better than girls; vice-versa"
Pierce(?) or not.and I'm still obssessed with my awesome keyboard :]
Labels: if you'd care for me; i wouldn't want to flee.
#Aug 19, 2008 / 8:20 PM
EMO FEST STRIKES AGAIN .D:
School was hella boring as usual.
I was being irritating to disturb zichao again ;x
SORRY.
P.E. sucked.
retarded assessment.
Outcasts [ like me ] shunned away (:
I'm only wanting to get a pass.
I
Chinese was crap again.
JUST
English was kinda enriching for me.
I flunked another compo test though, urgh.
didn't manage to hit 20s ):
[ PS: I'm kinda interested to join debates :D ]
WANTED
Maths.
Didn't do graph :D
Punished, lol -.-
SOME
Science was wasted at the lab.
Digestion-related experiment.
PLAIN boredom.
LOVE
Band was another waste of time.
Ed made us play stupid songs.
And I guess I only played for one-third of the time.
FROM
Guess what, my new electronic keyboard rocked my life, and I'm freakishly crazed about it.
That explains why I'm slacking :D
YOU
Gosh, I haven't been studying.
and common test is up TOMORROW.
Gotta start mugging, bleah.
COMMON TEST
ENGLISH - Tuesday, 19/8 [ I'm so failing summary. ]
SCIENCE - Wednesday, 20/8 [ Obvious failure too (: ]
MATHEMATICS - Thursday, 21/8 [ Leaving it all to luck :D ]
Labels: so long as you can see; there's no stopping you and me.
#Aug 18, 2008 / 8:20 PM
You are thoughtful and care alot for others,
that's why you usually keep things to yourself to prevent others from worrying.
You keep all your emotions and feelings to yourself because you don't wish to hurt anyone.
But sometimes, you still have to speak out and make yourself known.
You appear strong on the outside, always lending a helping hand or a listening ear to those in need, sometimes, even counselling them.
But the truth is, you are actually very brittle and also need someone to care for you on the inside.
And because you don't express yourself well, others don't even know what you are thinking.
You are also very mature to be able to be so thoughtful and caring.
You try to take in what others think, and are able to comfort them.
You are a great listener, and you will make a great counsellor, after counselling yourself!
and that's me.
Labels: don't pretend you'll ever forget about me; 'cause i know you can't be what you're to be.
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#Aug 16, 2008 / 10:10 AM
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#Aug 14, 2008 / 9:35 PM
#Aug 13, 2008 / 8:24 PM
#Aug 12, 2008 / 8:28 PM
CIP TODAY .
Beach cleaning at East Coast .
0800:
Met with Zhaorong and went to mac for breakfast.
Gladys, Germin, Natalie and Casandra were already there.
Sheng Wen & Yong Liang joined us too.
BREAKFAST.
Zi Chao joined us later.
And we headed for school after that.
Rotted awhile at school while waiting for late comers.
Sat with Zi Chao on the bus.
I'm lazy to update photos >:D
Grouped with Zhaorong , Yong Liang , Sheng Wen , Shawn.
Sorry Zi Chao ):
And beach cleaning.
Nothing much to elaborate on.
Sat at the jetty , slacked .
Emo ? ugh.
_gone.
Labels: your silence departs; i know we're apart.
#Aug 11, 2008 / 4:43 PM
and cont'd:
There you are, flaunting your success;
that you have people following you all the time.
And just because of that, you neglect your other friends.
And we're left alone, with the thought that no one cares.
Drilling ourselves with emo pills,hoping that its our heart that it fills.Look at me, dishevelled, dead.
I'm apathetic.
I guess I'm pretty darn a fool, to continue waiting.
I'm really still waiting.
Waiting for that one day, where maybe, I can be like you;
With people loving you all the time.
Hey, you've won already.
Your family is great, mine sucks, for your information.
Your life is completely awesome.
YOU WIN.
Now.
Can you help me ?
I'll let you know that I wake up every morning, yearning to see an sms.
Sent be somone, just someone.
To know that, someone actually cares about me.
Well, I guess its never going to happen.
I miss the times.
I'd rather go back to when I was primary 6.
At least they cared about my life and death.
I really wish to go back to the once hyper me.
You said I'm emo.
Well, try being in my situation.
I don't think you can let it go that easily.
EDITED:
I have enough.
My family sucks.
A biased father, a kbkp grandmother, a gl grandfather.
What the hell is this world coming to.
fuck my life .
EDITED-ED:
I'm sorry.
I guess I'm the worst friend ever.
I'm not fit to be anyone's friend.
Or for anyone to love.
I'm not worthy of you all.
I'm.
the
worst.
Most of all, I miss you.
A song I wrote:
Can't let go
Pretty, how are you doing today,
getting used to the spotlight's rays?
Hope we'll not get into any frays,
whenever we hear each other's says.
Keep our hearts at the tray,
don't let our lives slip gray.
I'm gonna stay.
And I can't let go,
I still remember the flow.
I want you to know,
that we can go slow, and lie low, and keep the glow.
I can't let go.
oh.
We're walking by each other with no more "hey"s,
you're keeping our friendship at bay.
"Let's get it going", I said okay,
but they're just part of your acts and plays.
Keep our hearts at the tray,
don't let our lives slip gray.
I'm gonna stay.
And I can't let go,
I still remember the flow.
I want you to know,
that we can go slow, and lie low, and keep the glow.
I can't let go.
oh.
Keep our hearts at the tray,
don't let our lives slip gray.
I'm gonna stay.
I still can't let go,
I want to remember the flow.
I need you to understand and know,
we can go slow, we will lie low, let's keep the glow.
I can't let go.
I can't let go.
I loved you so.
Labels: if you really let me down; i hope you'll turn it around.
#Aug 10, 2008 / 8:49 AM
I can't find my pace,I'm losing my faith,I'm fallen from grace,I'm all over the place.Nobody cares, as always.
You come find me only when you need me.
And when you don't need me, you throw me aside like trash.
I knew it.
You're no different from the others.
And I thought, you were the one.
The one to save me.
But no, you dashed my dreams.
And now I know.
I know that its true no one cares.
NO ONE .
Labels: it makes no sense; its any old how; i'm not strong enough; i don't have the pow.
#Aug 9, 2008 / 3:06 PM
I'm alone at home.
On National Day's Eve.
Beijing Olympics somemore.
tsk.
Its true.
No one wants to go with me.
Nobody goes with me,they shun me when they see.Yea, maybe you're right.
Maybe I am jealous.
I'm jealous that everyone has like a clique to hang out with.
And, I'm all alone.just 'cause I'm all monotone.I guess that explains why people don't like me.
They don't like my boring self.
My horrible attitude.
My irritating nature.
Yup, its that.
All the time, I see people all smiles,but I hide in a corner, inside the emo piles.Yes.
I shun myself away from sociality,
I don't allow myself to enter people's life.
Who wants me to anyway?
I'm not all happy and optimistic.Instead, I'm sad and pessimistic.Emo.
Maybe that term suits me best.
Agreed.
I know.
You say I'm trying to get attention,but I just want my name to be mentioned.True.
Maybe I pretend to be emo, just to gain all your attention.
Hey, who doesn't want someone to care?
Who doesn't want someone to think about him all the time?
I'm human too.
I need love.
I know your life's awesome and great.
You have friends hanging on your fingers all the time.
They follow you.
Maybe you just have that charm.
You were born to lead.
Well, good for you.
I guess life sucks for me then.
I ain't leading it that amazingly.
Why? you ask.
Well, look.
Nobody.
NOBODY wants me.
Not even my darn it parents.
No.
Not even my so called friends.
Never.
Wait, maybe I don't even have any.
Uh huh, that's right.
I've got no family, no friends
No one to freaking care about me.
Awesome.
Awesome life you say.
I'm trying my very best for someone to love and care for me,
but look, I guess things just don't go my way.
Luck just doesn't click with me.
Well, too bad huh ?
tsk.
Labels: I remembered that day; and I won't be okay.
#Aug 8, 2008 / 10:15 PM
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them. The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true. Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with? Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success. How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Quiz taken from Shawn's blog.
Mostly, I find, are quite true.
I'm like that, but did you all notice?
Another random quiz :
1. Who are you thinking of now:
Zi Chao, the monitor, surprisingly.
[ This is not meant to sound gay -.- ]
2. What are you thinking of now:
Why do I keep everything to myself.
3. What's on your playlist now:
Yesterday - Leona Lewis
4. Where are you now:
At home, duh.
5. Quote in your mind now:
"Just take it away, we can never have yesterday." as from the song.
6. Last person you sms-ed:
Casandra ._.
7. Last person you talked to on the phone:
Zhaorong. :D
8. Last person you chatted with:
Sheng Wen, on msn .
9. Person you wish to talk to now:
Class monitor ._.
10. Person you miss most right now:
Still the monitor. D:
end.
Labels: I'm losing you; my perfect daisy; Life without you is complete hazy.
#Aug 3, 2008 / 1:04 PM
Great, I only get to use com now .
Pretty, how are you doing today,getting used to spotlight's rays?Hope we'll not get into any frays,whenever we hear each other's says.We're walking by each other with no more "hey"s,you're keeping our friendship at bay."Let's get it going", I said okay,but they're just part of your acts and plays.Who's the one that's gonna pay?Not me, I'm gonna stay.Keep our hearts at the tray,don't let our lives slip gray.Labels: I was naive; I just believed everything you told me.
#Aug 2, 2008 / 5:07 PM